Sunday's and good night kisses..

Well i have been in one really crappy mood, I have been in the same state of mind since my last post. about certain people, It's just one thing after the other, It just never ends. There is always something or someone bringing me down, Only this time im in no hurry to e ad them to facebook since i got blocked and deleted again, Im done, I'm not doing anything to help any more, it's me and daniel all the way, having said that it isnt just about T it's also about dyon, I cant get it out of my head that someone can be so rude and mean, and its getting to me that i just cant escape him! i can't get away its driving me absolutely nuts, I'm so over it it's not funny, Im over being called a "fat pig" and a "sl**" and I just feel like he is always going to have control over me.. i just want out. i want out of everything i want to run away and be by myself.. i really do.. I will take daniel and the kids, and if i could take mum n dad i would however they would be missed and needed here, but i just dont want anything to do with everything. im just oh dam it i just want to scream and punch some walls or throw some eggs or something. why do people do this to me? why? why why? arggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, its sunday and apart fom me not feeling myself i did have n awesome time with daniel.. mnd u the kids are testing him now but i half expected it, they have to i did it. and i still do it i test him all the time and half the time i dont even realise ive done it.

so my man has gone home nd he would maybe be on his way home from church now, I miss him like crazy but i enjoy the company.. i dont feel so bad with ella now i feel like i constantly have someone to keep an eye on, and she looks after me,

we had our first "shower" tonight she did good, not to scared. im proud of her and she smells beautiful now and all fluffy and clean..  and we are going to go to bed soon, and wait for daniel to get home so i can talk to him.

monday tomorrow! week starts again and tuesday will be 3 months! thats 1/4 of a year! feels like forever and feels like ive always had him there.. I love him!