I do not like rules, I just simply cannot do them. i do not follow them, and i dont respond to people who say i cant do something.. when people do say things like that It just makes me more determined to do what they say i couldnt do.. However i am finding that there are certain things that annoy daniel, now i know its wrong and some times i dont even realise i am doing it.. but i test him, why? because i dont know what he would do if he got really mad.. i dont know if he would walk out, yell get really mad. so far ive had little to no reaction. which i think proves im pretty safe.. however i have also realised that i have to follow some rules.. esp when it comes to daniel.. no tickling because he hates it! which is crap because its fun mucking around.! and dont ask him "are you grumpy" because that makes him gumpy! but its cute watching his face when he is like trying not to laugh but be serious.
I am finding now that things are getting comfortable, and sometimes the conversations can get pretty involved and im loving tht i have someone i can tell everything to.
Wednesday night I went through all the emotions.. I cried, I laughed, and i got cranky. not once did he let it bother him.. and if im honest im a bit of a mess at the moment... the "tough" macho act is just an act. im not strong at all. most nights i cry. its crazy..
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