The secret is out!

So everybody knows.... no going back. its moving forwards from now on. no more doubting that you love me and no more doubting that i love u. i know it i feel it i cant hide it any longer and to be honest i dont want to hide it. i want to walk out side right now and yell at the top of my lungs that I love daniel! obviously since i dont know anyone in this street i wont be doing it. but i definetly wont be hiding it from anyone.

I have made my decision it's time to stop playing the insecure me and start being the normal me. well that is pretty normal..  but no more.

anyway on a downer the stupid dreams are back! and just as id finally thought i got rid of them.. they are back. i actually had one a few nights ago but didnt think anything of it.. but going to the egg donours yesterday definetly brought them back.. i tried so hard to stay awake last night thinking about the good things but i couldnt.. stay awake  any longer.. i just fell asleep.. listening to my songs... at one point i woke  up and there was someone on the end of my bed.. i just went back to sleep but every time i woke up i saw the same thing.. so i think ill sleep in mums bed tonight even though i shouldnt... or ill sleep in the lounge room. i hate this it will end up same as always.. i will end up sick. and really tired. god help me thursday when im on my own for two nights! lol i need my own  house so i can have people over for "sleep overs"

anyway i should probably go see if the kids are asleep.. its good tv on tonight.. woo hoo!