well all i can say is what a what a day! what a week, what a month what for the last 4 months. CRAZY!
it has been drama after drama after drama since we started. sometimes it makes you think what the H**** am i doing? because it just gets so blooming emotional and im the one that gets blamed for it all! but then i take one look at him and who we are as a couple and i just think.... It's all WORTH IT!
it just doesnt seem to ever end i cant escape drama! and people tell me im a "drama queen"" well no im not. since leaving dyon ive mellowed i dont like the drama i just want it to be a good thing! thats all. and if i thought i had the MIL from hell last time? well she is an angel compared to what i have to deal with.
for starters she has been at me since the beginning. she wanted us to be together yet now she seems to be doing everything to be tearing us apart. well she makes it all about her. and then continues to tell me "see jess its the same old shit everything has to be about you" and last night we went and did the right thing and tell her about some news we have and she just goes off at me. saying "well thats just brilliant. so what who cares. whatever"and then i said something to her and she just flat out yells to me to "shut up jess i have nothing to say to you and i dont wish to discuss it with you""! well HELLO WOMAN this is MY LIFE you are bitching about. and i just couldnt believe she said something like that to me. the woman who has been like my aunty for the last 15 years is suddenly telling me to shut up...
and then she goes on to say that i have ruined his life'? and i planned this well got exactly what i wanted.. well actually i havent. 1: we have been pushed closer together and pushed into doing things I''m not entirely ready for 2: I have one very hurt boyfriend whom i can imagine is probably feeling a little let down at the moment.. and 3: I have 3 KIDS of my own to think of. to be honest its all just a bit much. you cant just make everything about your self and scare everyone back into their little holes! i wont tollerate it. and to be honest she should take a look at her own life and see what errors she has made and im pretty sure they arent as bad as mine! and maybe then she should just butt out of my life all together because i really couldnt give a hoot at the moment. im rather hurt and let down. my name is not megan and i am not her child or anything! she has no right to treat me like she does everyone else. and i wont take it at all! and i wont bite my tongue! she can take it from me. and the next time she tells me to "take your tablets you'd be a lot better"im going to hit my head on a brick wall! she wouldnt know the difference because i havent taken them for 4 months!
and to top it off she sends home flowers with daniel. today after he went there for lunch. pfft! sorry not going to work!!!!!!! i seriously felt like throwing them in the bin. but that would be disrespectful to daniel and im not going to lower my self to that level.
anyway he is here now and we just have to make sure we try to have the best life possible, and make time for us because we still need time to get to know each other and we still need the romance bit...
I love him with all my heart and i will do absolutely anything to make his life a good one. i am going to be his wife and i intend on being the best wife i can possibly be. because even though we have made an error i went into this relationship knowing full well that i loved him! and that i wanted to be with him forever. so no its not the same situation as last time. its a good life for me and my kids and its a good one for daniel.
anyway kids need me so i shall finish it later.
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